Chapter 10. Will it work?
Ali's pov.
So i'm keeping Jesse in my life, im openning up my heart more and trying to get comfortable with this whole 'boyfriend' deal but its just slightly weird for me. He calls me at the end of each day to ask me about my day and on the weekends, we go out for dinner and sometimes he wants to go back to Santa Barbra to cruise around and spend more time 'getting to know one another'. Honestly, I don't wanna be fake or pretend but I know Jesse's not. Its all me and the more I work at this, the harder it is for me. Only because i'm so use to partying all weekend long and having a bunch of 'one night stand's. I'm just not use to being with one guy and not even getting laid by him. From my understanding, he has a 'nasty past' as well but hes acting like its over, like he no longer wishes to full around, he just wants a tight, friendship and its really hard to understand why. Maybe he really does love me, maybe love exsist, just my parents were'nt really in love? I find that hard to believe but I can see how hard Jesse is working to show me im wrong. I wanna show him hes wrong as well. Just to show him, I went and did something I now regret. While he was out of town last weekend, I went and had another 'one night stand.' Thats right, I went out with my girls, like Jesse told me I could and I met a guy there, just a nice, very sexy, guy who wanted nothing more than to have hot, sex, with me. SO I had the hottest sex, so desperate and empty, I needed my tank filled back on high, so I slept with the guy and got my fix again. It felt good, until I was awoken the next mornning by Jesse, waking me up sweetly to tell me he misses me and dreamed about me. I know he really cares and if he knew where I was and who I was with, he'd surely never forgive me. Lets see how long I can lie to him though... See the guy, he knows Jesse and Jesse knows him, they are 'friends' and I only hope this never gets out. Its just something I needed bad and since Jesse wouldn't give it to me, I had to go get it else where. Now hes back home and the first thing he wants to do is invite me over to watch the game with him and spend time. Little did I know, If I had waited, Jesse would be in the mood. I assumed he'd never give me anything since he wants this 'perfect friendship/relationship' but turns out, durring the game, Jesse was so hot for me, me for him and he carried me upstairs to his bedroom. I was almost speechless and now feeling so horrible for what I did over the weekend. He hasn't even quesioned about my weekend without him, he only lets me know he missed me really badly and hes been waiting for the perfect and romantic momment to have sex and appearently, watching football with me, got him really hot and turned on. SO he layed me on his bed, took off all of my clothes and his too, allowing me to finally see him fully naked, (like a dream come true, somebody pinch me because hes a complete angel) and finally his strong, arms, grabbed me up tightly, he slides his manhood in me deep and starts to rock me under his sheets, while looking into my eyes, with these peircing, green, eyes. My breath was completely taken away and I had no words. Just moans and yells out of excitement as Jesse thrusted into me so quick and deep, causing the whole bed to shake sweat just dripping off our bodies. Sure its great that I got laid twice in just 4 days but I feel really bad and as we both now lay next to each other, tired, so red and weak, i'm afraid to say anything at all. I don't wanna tell him what I did behind his back but I surely don't wanna lie to him because I now for once in my life, feel like I care about someone and I know for a fact, he truely cares about me...
Ali's pov.
So i'm keeping Jesse in my life, im openning up my heart more and trying to get comfortable with this whole 'boyfriend' deal but its just slightly weird for me. He calls me at the end of each day to ask me about my day and on the weekends, we go out for dinner and sometimes he wants to go back to Santa Barbra to cruise around and spend more time 'getting to know one another'. Honestly, I don't wanna be fake or pretend but I know Jesse's not. Its all me and the more I work at this, the harder it is for me. Only because i'm so use to partying all weekend long and having a bunch of 'one night stand's. I'm just not use to being with one guy and not even getting laid by him. From my understanding, he has a 'nasty past' as well but hes acting like its over, like he no longer wishes to full around, he just wants a tight, friendship and its really hard to understand why. Maybe he really does love me, maybe love exsist, just my parents were'nt really in love? I find that hard to believe but I can see how hard Jesse is working to show me im wrong. I wanna show him hes wrong as well. Just to show him, I went and did something I now regret. While he was out of town last weekend, I went and had another 'one night stand.' Thats right, I went out with my girls, like Jesse told me I could and I met a guy there, just a nice, very sexy, guy who wanted nothing more than to have hot, sex, with me. SO I had the hottest sex, so desperate and empty, I needed my tank filled back on high, so I slept with the guy and got my fix again. It felt good, until I was awoken the next mornning by Jesse, waking me up sweetly to tell me he misses me and dreamed about me. I know he really cares and if he knew where I was and who I was with, he'd surely never forgive me. Lets see how long I can lie to him though... See the guy, he knows Jesse and Jesse knows him, they are 'friends' and I only hope this never gets out. Its just something I needed bad and since Jesse wouldn't give it to me, I had to go get it else where. Now hes back home and the first thing he wants to do is invite me over to watch the game with him and spend time. Little did I know, If I had waited, Jesse would be in the mood. I assumed he'd never give me anything since he wants this 'perfect friendship/relationship' but turns out, durring the game, Jesse was so hot for me, me for him and he carried me upstairs to his bedroom. I was almost speechless and now feeling so horrible for what I did over the weekend. He hasn't even quesioned about my weekend without him, he only lets me know he missed me really badly and hes been waiting for the perfect and romantic momment to have sex and appearently, watching football with me, got him really hot and turned on. SO he layed me on his bed, took off all of my clothes and his too, allowing me to finally see him fully naked, (like a dream come true, somebody pinch me because hes a complete angel) and finally his strong, arms, grabbed me up tightly, he slides his manhood in me deep and starts to rock me under his sheets, while looking into my eyes, with these peircing, green, eyes. My breath was completely taken away and I had no words. Just moans and yells out of excitement as Jesse thrusted into me so quick and deep, causing the whole bed to shake sweat just dripping off our bodies. Sure its great that I got laid twice in just 4 days but I feel really bad and as we both now lay next to each other, tired, so red and weak, i'm afraid to say anything at all. I don't wanna tell him what I did behind his back but I surely don't wanna lie to him because I now for once in my life, feel like I care about someone and I know for a fact, he truely cares about me...